Looking back… Hello, India.
I travelled to India alone for a yoga teacher training in 2013. The reason why I went there for the specific year was that I needed a break from my five year of unhealthy relationship. The relationship was already done, but I just needed to know it was for sure DONE for myself.
I am a person who doesn’t like patience or maybe I am too patient that I ignore the pain I create and become numb. Either way, I needed a different setting in my life.
Regular routine of yoga practice became something I truly felt home or sacred. I could let my anger, frustration and sadness to be wild open on my mat. But I guess regular practice wasn’t enough to keep me sane in real life.
Passion took me to India – half hope and escape. I truly wanted to learn “What is the reason why I am so attracted to yoga?” and at the same time, I just needed a big gasp of air to take ALONE.
When you are open to new possibilities, every little thing you love and hate become obvious.
So what do you wanna keep and what do you want to let go?
The answer is always in you. You just need to look deep and do some digging. The process may look ugly, but do you ever want it to be beautiful?
Traveling to India and learning how to be patient with awareness was something that I struggled a lot. But you just need to be patient and find the angles you can see things differently. It may take some time, but in the end, it is all beautiful.
India taught me what “NAMASTE” means…